Mikah Nitrous White

08/04/04 - 07/19/05

Take a look around. Take alook at all of the maeaningless action people take. I think we all at times froget to "stop and smell the roses"!! Satan does an amazing job at distracting us from our eternal goal of eternal exhaltation. As I ponder the loss of a wonderful spirit just two short years ago as he left this game that we call life, I can't help but wonder....are we taking advantage of every moment. Do we live each moment like it is our last? Do we help that stranger just because? Do we come at our day with love in our heart? Life it to short to ever hate, or to ever live in regret. I thank god every day for the oppotunity to take another breath...but why does he let me breath??? What am I doing with my time??? When no one is looking am I still the same person, and the biggest question of all is....would Mikah look down on us from his kingdom in heaven an be proud of us??? I declare to you and to the world that today i will do all that I can....Today I will start a new...Today i will love those even if they show me hate...Today i will row the boat that god wants me to row, down the road that god wants me to be on. I will no longer live in fear for this moment might be my last and I don't want my last thought to be "Did I sing my song, or did I sing the song society wanted me to sing?"...Today I will live with a smile on my face even though I miss Mikah so much...Today i know that God loves me no matter what...Today I will be who I know I can be...Today is the first day of my new begginning...I love my life...I love everything god allows me to experience, the good and the bad...Today I will no longer look at a trial as a bad thing but as a learing experience for a purpose I may not yet know...Today is only the beginning. I love and miss mikah with all my heart. His beautiful little face has touched and influenced us all. His impact will ripple through the eternities. I know he is in a better place and he has fullfilled his mission on earth. But I also know that he is always here and has never really ever been gone....

Understanding life is one thing that I have struggled with for most of mine. I am so thankful for my God for giving me the life I am living. I know that life can end at any moment and I will always live each day as though it were my last. I always ask the question,"Am I doing everything I can today to live the life I love?" as long as i can answer that question with a yes then I can sleep through the night knowing that if I die before I wake that I can meet my maker with my head up and my shoulders high!!

It is not the words, nor the tone, nor even the hook. It spawns from something much deeper than that. It's not the mics, nor the monitors, or even the sound board that deploys one to greatness. It comes from a different source. It's not even the roaring croud silenced by a single note, nor is it the creshendo after the final measure, or even the tears that well up on the faces of thousands with a simple glance. No... it is none of these things. This passion comes from a place within. A place everyone is just begging to obtain. I have found what many still seek. The passion for music touches my soul in ways that words fall short. Whether on the stage or in the studio, whether it is the first time sung or the 100th time, that passion inside me has grown to a point of absolute perfection. We produce movies and write novels all with the hopes of inspiring us for something greater, something bigger then ourselves. I HAVE FINALLY FOUND WHAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR!!! I have struggled to find my place in this world, I have questioned my very presence among you. But alas I declare to you today that I have found my place, my purpose, my life is finally full and complete. I have finally found "ME" in music!!